Heaven

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I do not know where is located. Although many people around me, but I still feel alone and frightened. I still ask and keep asking, what is this place, and why should all men be collected. Could it be, oh I do not want to figure out.
My fear became ever more-so, when I knew someone who had never before approached and answered my questions. "This is called Padang Mahsyar," his voice was so thrilled my soul. "How could he know the question," I thought. I shuddered, my body felt weak, my eyes strained to find refuge from someone I know.
I saw the blackened sky, a moment later kemilauan shine. Simultaneously, a voice echoed. I just realized, this is the day of determination, the day when all mankind will accept the decision will reply from the charity during life on earth. Today also will be determined the fate of the next man, who will enjoy heaven or hell adzab that await you.
I'm getting scared. But there is pounding in my chest since my good deeds in the world. Could I belong to the people who get his love, or perhaps .........
Me and all other human beings are still awaiting a decision from the master the Day of Judgement. Not long later, came the voice again echoing earlier who said that shortly will read a list of humans who will accompany the Prophet Muhammad in a beautiful paradise. Again, my chest pounding, there is the belief that my name was included on that list, considering the number that I infaq charity. Moreover, when the world I'm known as a missionary interpreters. "Even if many people are kudakwahi go to heaven, let alone me," I thought confidently.
Finally, the names and even then began to be mentioned. I still think that my name is in the row of the Garden that, given the acts of worship and my good deeds. In that list, the name of Prophet Muhammad SAW is certainly listed on the top, according to the promise of God through Gabriel, that none of the soul into heaven before Muhammad's entrance. After that tersebutlah the Assabiquunal Awwaluun. I saw Fatimah Az Zahra with a cheery smile stepped happy as the first woman to heaven, followed by his wives and family of the other apostles.
The other prophets and messengers of Allah were included in the list. Yasir and Sumayyah walked calmly to the predicate Martyrs and the first martyr in Islam. Also the other companions, one by one the followers of former apostle proudly stepped into the place where God will open tabirnya. All I know, one of the pleasures to be received by the occupants of heaven is seeing God's face. I saw the friends and Anshor immigrants who were grateful to get favors in return for loyalty there is no infinite fought alongside Muhammad enforce the treatise. After that tersebutlah the previous believers and martyrs in various struggles defending Allah's religion.
Meanwhile, my chest berdegub hard to wait their turn. I was shocked when she saw a group of children orphaned by happily ran to immediately enjoy the freshness of the lake Kautsar. Some of them smiled as he waved his hand to me. Looks like I know them. O Allah, their orphaned children next door who never noticed. Children who always cry of hunger at night while I threw most often do not run out of food I ate.
"Subhanallah, that the builders Parmin noodles near my office," I was stunned to see sauntered into heaven. Parmin, youth who had never graduated from elementary school had been told, that most of its trading results for the mother and she kririmkan four sister's school fees. Parmin who diligently pray it, willing to fast for days from the mother and her sisters in the ward are not starving. Suddenly, people who had been beside me say again, "the handyman Parmin noodles were better in the eyes of God. He worked for the happiness of others." While I, all the sweat just for my needs.
Then successively pass in front of my eyes, mbok Darmi seller of the food that his presence was always kutolak, beggars who daily passed the house and always get the word "sorry" from my lips my house behind a high fence. The man beside me spoke again as if to answer every question, although not kulontarkan, "They are upright, not be hurt and did not hate even if you refuse."
By Jove teaching students that I coached, they beat me to heaven. Afterwards, pilgrims flocked to mosques where I used to preach. "They learn to you, then they resume practicing. While you were, too much talking and little listening. In fact, the more that can be learned by listening than talking," he explained.
I'm getting curious and waited my turn to be called. Along with that queue human beings with a cheerful face, getting longer. But so far, have not called my name. I was getting mad, I wanted to meet God and said, "O Allah, I did a lot of worship in the world, I bershodaqoh, many helping others, a lot of preaching, allow me to surgaMu.
People with shining faces next to it to speak again, I want to reject it. However, my hands could not hold him to speak. "Worship is not for God, but merely for the sake get the paradise of God, shodaqohmu merely to clarify the social status, your help is stored behind the desire to get the award, and preaches that you do only a trace for others, not for you," my body trembled to hear it.

INCLUDING ME WHERE?

The clock struck three times. I jerked awake and, astaghfirullah turns out God has told me through a dream tonight.
For all my friends, forgive me if you ever hurt me.